So, as you can see I have not been here to blog since July. Not that anyone missed me, no one knows this blogs exists! But here I am, back to blog and I am shocked at the date. I started this blog EXACTLY one year ago on January 15, 2007 and now it is January 15, 2008 and believe it or not we are STILL waiting for our new baby.
We were shown last week and found out on Monday that it's NOT US....AGAIN.
I was crushed and sad. Had the good and ugly cry and began the speculation of why. Why?
We didn't even make it into the final four cut for this showing. Really it's not about "this" situation, it's the fact that the showings of our profile are few and far between.
We were shown once in 2006, then in May of 2007, and twice in August 2007. This is the first showing in 4 months. That's a long dry spell so the disappointment of not being chosen just stings a little bit more.
I haven't been satisified with our profile since I turned it in 15+ months ago. We had a meeting with our case worker in October to discuss ways to improve our profile. We are still wondering how to do that, how to change it without loosing "us". Today I contacted a gal that works on reworking adoption profiles. I'm waiting to hear back on what her services provide.
Bottom line...I need to feel I'm doing more to make this happen. I don't know how to pray about it, I don't know how to release it, I don't know how not to think about it!
But....this too shall pass!
