Is Our Family Complete?

Hmmmm..... is our family complete? It's a question that creeps into my mind every now and then. Nobody really seems to ask us that question. I'm sure they assume that since it took us 11 years to get two kids we are probably satisfied - and we are. The fact that we have 2 boys would be the question that most people would wonder - are you going for a girl?!

The answer to that question is NO. We are note going for a girl - but a better question would be - Is Our Family Complete? I'm not sure that it is. Boy or Girl I'm not sure we are done. But what I do know is that I'm not in contact with my case worker at the adoption agency and I'm not looking to re-do our homestudy, build a new family profile book and wait for the phone to ring - been there, done that, got 2 babies thank you very much!

BUT - don't you love that word - But, I'm not sure that our family is complete! I'm open to more. I think WE are open to more.

That being said you are wondering - Michelle, just how are you going to add to your family with out getting back on the adoption superhighway? Well, I was thinking "it" it being "something" might just happen! I've always joked that the one good moving sperm is going to make his grand venture just in time to find my old drying up egg that still has a little kick in left in her and then, just as I'm about to go through "the change" BAM! Baby! I don't hope or wish for that to happen, I'm very, very fine and content that I've never been pregnant and mourned that loss years and years ago, but I'm open and willing if the miracle did happen!

Sometimes I think a situation might just find it's way to us - like the stork dropping a baby in a basket on our door step. If something like that should happen we are ready with open arms.

So, if you see a stork flying around it's ok to send them our way.

10 Little Toes

I haven't used this blog to blog much. I've used it as a place to post our journey of adoption. A place to post our profile book for those who are in that stage of adoption and are looking for ideas. And my last post was to announce the arrival of our sweet baby boy - Dayne J Thomas who arrive in March 2008.

So why am I back to blog here? Not sure...we do have a family website, I'm on Facebook and My Space (but never go there), I chat online with ladies who have become my dear friends as we all share an adoption link - but usually talk about so much more. So why here?

Again - not real sure. Except that not many people know about this blog so it's kinda like a diary, my personal journal!

On to the topic that brought me here....

10 Little Toes!

My sweet baby Dayne has the sweetest little toes on his feet!

I mean totally sweet!

When he sits in the highchair he swings his legs and crosses his little feet and it makes my heart jump a beat!

Another reason I think I love his feet is because they remind me of his birth mom and I love that!

The very first time we met Carrie was the day after she delivered Dayne.

As she walked into the hospital room we were waiting in across from her room while holding the bundle that would be the son we would both love forever I noticed she was barefoot. Why did I notice? What difference did it make? It didn't matter in the least, but I did notice. It was March and it was cold outside with a snow storm on the way and I worried that maybe her feet were cold, but she seemed fine.

Since that day when I admire the feet and baby toes of my little gift I think of his first mom and know that he is such a part of her. He has her feet! And though he doesn't mind socks and soft shoes, he likes to be barefoot too!

Meet Dayne

Meet our new baby son

Dayne J Thomas

born March 19, 2008

6 pounds 6 ounces

19 1/2 inches long

New & Improved Adoption Profile

Adoption Profile Book

For the past 5 months I've been re-doing our Adoption Profile book. Actually for 4.5 months I've been avoiding it (it's a control thing) and then a conversation with our case worker at the agency lit a fire under me to GET IT DONE! Our original profile need some "tweaking" and the way I put our book together didn't allow for simply removing a page (they were laminated together!) so if I was going to re-print I was going to re-write, and if I was going to re-write I was going to re-format and if I was going to re-formate well, you get the picture (anyone thinking of a certain mouse and cookie story at this point). So, I took words and pictures I liked from our original profile and cut out about 85% of the rest and this is what we are now presenting to Meet the Berglund's.

SERIOUSLY!

So, as you can see I have not been here to blog since July. Not that anyone missed me, no one knows this blogs exists! But here I am, back to blog and I am shocked at the date. I started this blog EXACTLY one year ago on January 15, 2007 and now it is January 15, 2008 and believe it or not we are STILL waiting for our new baby.

We were shown last week and found out on Monday that it's NOT US....AGAIN.
I was crushed and sad. Had the good and ugly cry and began the speculation of why. Why?
We didn't even make it into the final four cut for this showing. Really it's not about "this" situation, it's the fact that the showings of our profile are few and far between.

We were shown once in 2006, then in May of 2007, and twice in August 2007. This is the first showing in 4 months. That's a long dry spell so the disappointment of not being chosen just stings a little bit more.

I haven't been satisified with our profile since I turned it in 15+ months ago. We had a meeting with our case worker in October to discuss ways to improve our profile. We are still wondering how to do that, how to change it without loosing "us". Today I contacted a gal that works on reworking adoption profiles. I'm waiting to hear back on what her services provide.

Bottom line...I need to feel I'm doing more to make this happen. I don't know how to pray about it, I don't know how to release it, I don't know how not to think about it!

But....this too shall pass!

8 Months+

So, I started this blog, but didn't continue...much like me. I get excited, but than the fun and excitement fizzles and than I have to decide if I should quit or continue.
As far as adoption goes I'm all in. There was a post on one of the adoption sites I'm on asking when do you know it's time to give up and quit the adoption journey. I feel my answer is never. I guess I feel that if are going to trust God to bring us to this, he is going to bring us through this! Adoption is how we are going to grow our family. What may change is the choices we have made along the way. We chose the agency, we chose the race and age of child we are waiting for. Those things may change in the future, but what will not change (I don't think) is our desire for another child. A member of this family. So, it's been 8 months and soon it will be a year and we will have to up date our homestudy. We will because maybe God's timeline is one year and one day. I don't know, but I trust He does!